I'm normally not a New Year's Resolution type of person. If I've made them, I've broken them, most before the month of January has faded away. So what makes this year different? The fact that it's a NEW year. A DIFFERENT year. A year in which I NEED to decide how the rest of my life looks.
Have you ever looked at your life and been unhappy with what you see? Have you avoided looking closely to evade an inevitable truth? Have you ever lost yourself... and not in a good way? How is it that this can happen so easily? I know I didn't intend for this to happen. I'm not even sure exactly when it started. Once I was in a long-term relationship? After I graduated college? When I got married?
Somewhere along my journey through life... I lost my sparkle. I lost me.
I'd like to say that I came to this realization on my own, but that would be a lie. As with so many other things in my life, the need for a little soul searching was brought up by someone else, a someone who knows me better than anyone else. It was then corroborated by two other someones who know me 2nd and 3rd best.
Last year took me down the darkest road of my life, but also gifted me with the most beautiful, sweet, loving bundle of joy any mother could ever desire. That's life for you. Incredibly well-versed in bittersweet ironies.
This is going to be a hodge-podge, commonplace book kind of blog. A way to document everything that's essentially me. Books I've read, TV Shows and Movies I've watched, Clothes, Shoes, and Accessories I love, Nails of the Day, Things I've learned as a mom, Food I've tried, Photos I've taken... I could go on and on.
2013 is the year of turning everything around. I'm on a quest for positivity. I'm looking for meaning in it all. I'm on a search for me. I want to be deliberate in everything that I do. This is my attempt to Carpe Diem... Seize the Day...
I'm just taking it one day at a time, trying to Seize the Sparkle.
Have you ever looked at your life and been unhappy with what you see? Have you avoided looking closely to evade an inevitable truth? Have you ever lost yourself... and not in a good way? How is it that this can happen so easily? I know I didn't intend for this to happen. I'm not even sure exactly when it started. Once I was in a long-term relationship? After I graduated college? When I got married?
Somewhere along my journey through life... I lost my sparkle. I lost me.
I'd like to say that I came to this realization on my own, but that would be a lie. As with so many other things in my life, the need for a little soul searching was brought up by someone else, a someone who knows me better than anyone else. It was then corroborated by two other someones who know me 2nd and 3rd best.
Last year took me down the darkest road of my life, but also gifted me with the most beautiful, sweet, loving bundle of joy any mother could ever desire. That's life for you. Incredibly well-versed in bittersweet ironies.
This is going to be a hodge-podge, commonplace book kind of blog. A way to document everything that's essentially me. Books I've read, TV Shows and Movies I've watched, Clothes, Shoes, and Accessories I love, Nails of the Day, Things I've learned as a mom, Food I've tried, Photos I've taken... I could go on and on.
2013 is the year of turning everything around. I'm on a quest for positivity. I'm looking for meaning in it all. I'm on a search for me. I want to be deliberate in everything that I do. This is my attempt to Carpe Diem... Seize the Day...
I'm just taking it one day at a time, trying to Seize the Sparkle.
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